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12 Jul
12Jul

Above feeling unloved
Above low self-esteem
Above feeling inadequate
Above self-defeating behavior
Above seeking validation from others
Above Past Mistakes or Regrets

You and I have a masterful enemy that is out to destroy us and his name is Satan!He took control over my life at a very young age. I was cursing people out at 5 years of age because that is what was spoken in my home. And as I got older, it only got worst.My father was a very mean and abusive man and was always whipping on me for every little thing I did wrong. I never believed he loved me, in fact sometimes I thought he hated me. You may be asking yourself where was my mother?My mother was fighting Cancer during my early years...She died when I was Thirteen.Everything I learned about being a woman was from the streets and you know that wasn't good or productive. I won't go into details here about what I went through ( However, I will share on a one on one basis). I never felt that I fit in anywhere and my self esteem was rock bottom. We learn self love, self-esteem, empathy from our parents and others in our lives. However, when that is not given to you or taught how to give to others, we become selfish and critical of ourselves and others. This was my plight for many years. True and unconditional love for me and for me to give other people was not a part of my DNA. Then one night, after work I was invited to church by a man I was very interested in. My mind was not on church, just on him...so I went. We were in what was called an Upper Room. The man I was interested in and a missionary was there along with other people on their knees praying. I was told to get on my knees and just keep repeating Jesus, Jesus, Jesus. Now let me stop and say something here, because I was not confident in myself and not feeling I had anything to offer, I use to fake confidence and self-love...Its called "faking it until you can make it." So, getting on my knees and repeatedly saying Jesus, Jesus over and other until saliva ran out my mouth was completely undignified to me...Completely! However, I did it. While calling out the Lord's name repeatedly, His name changed and began to speak in languages I had no knowledge of...The heaviness and my poor image of myself was gone! In all my years, I never felt so light and so peaceful as I did that night and since. I had been wiped clean of eveer sin that I had committed against others and my own sins. Now you may think I am making this up, but I'm not! God set me free that night! Now, I am not going to tell you that I don't have problems come up on me, because that would be a lie. However, I am going to tell you that my past and present Problems, I am now able to walk them out with the help of the Lord. 

You want to be delivered from past abuses, feeling unwanted and unloved, not trusting others and any other issue you have been dealing with and have not been sble to break free? How many years have you done things your way? How have they been working out for you? Do yourself a great service and give our Lord and Savior a try. Jesus is waiting to set you free1 He is waiting to give your life meaning and purpose! what have you got to lose, except for your misery! If you want to go before the Lord and seek His forgiveness, send us a message through our contact page. We will walk you through what to say...

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